man, I can't ever think of good titles!

I think I've forgotten how to journal. Well, not really. But I haven't written an entry like this one in a while, I don't think. Mostly because I've always written to clear my mind or sort things out. But right now I need to stop thinking about certain things so much, because God isn't going to tell me exactly what's going to happen and how. Right now I am apparently to wait...more...and He wants me to learn how to simply trust Him with the future.

Hm...let's see. What have I been up to lately? I need to make myself study more, because I can't keep words and their meanings straight. And we have an exam on Thursday, and one part of it will be writing sentences in Italian about some drawings that'll be on a test. I've found that that I take to the grammar pretty well, I just can't remember what verb means what and which ones are irregular, and which verbs take on "avere" in the past tense and which ones take on "essere", and which past tense verbs are irregular and...*holds head* uuungh! And I've been staring at too many screens: computer, laptop, power point...I just want to shut my eyes while in front of them.

7-24 has started a new video series called "Twisted". It's all about the Devil and how the subtly twists the truth ever so slightly so that we don't realize it. Tonight the speaker (in the video) talked about the very real presence of the Devil. I'm praying that I shall be able to make it to all the rest of the video series.

This past weekend was a bit strange, because I was so restless like I should be doing something but I couldn't think of anything! Even the workout earlier in the day with Joe Bumba didn't help later on! Usually I get restless because I feel like I should go for a run/walk or some other sort of work out. But this time was odd, nothing settled my mind. The same thing happened last weekend, too! This past Sunday, it was so bad, I texted Daniel and asked if he had already left for Pittsburg and he said he was about to leave and I asked if I could go with him, but then there was no train coming back that night so I couldn't go anyway. But Bible study was good, and we had drama practice for about a half hour afterwards because we hadn't had it on Saturday.

For the past few days I've been reading a book called For Young Women Only. It's a really good book that helps young adult and teen girls become better friends/daughters/sisters to the males in their lives and how to prepare for marriage. A lot of it I've heard or read already a lot not saying I read it thinking, "Yeah, yeah, I've heard all this before", but nothing in it has really been a surprise so it's almost odd to me that they keep saying, "Now I know this may be shocking to some of you, but..." But yeah. It's really good. And one part made me wonder, and I wanted to ask the guys I know: do I gossip? or have I? Because I don't think girls always know when they're gossiping (I mean, sometimes it's obvious, but sometimes not so much). I mean...I guess I probably have, but I don't know... It was also interesting to me when it said that guys need unconditional respect like girls need unconditional love, and that guys often feel disrespected as easily as girls feel unloved. I mean...I knew that guys often, "all things being equal" desired respect over love, 'cause I've read that before. But I don't think it ever struck me as to that "extreme".

And then lastly...this Sunday I may be going to Pittsburg to visit Daniel for the day. Hasn't been decided for certain yet though, but I hope so. We may be broken up, but we're even better friends now, and I've always enjoyed hanging out with him. And it's an amazing thing for me to see so many of the things written about in for young women only being played out before my eyes in how much he appreciates me supporting him in his dream to open this store. He is so energetic and a very good leader and he knows how to be serious, and how to be convincing and relational in the business, and then off work, especially since we broke up, he's got this child-like dependance on those close to him, especially with the women who are close to him, older and younger.

Anyway, I should go to bed. I'm not in the military, I don't need to get used to little to no sleep ;-)