The next song I'd like to perform...

...and a message to all who think that I have not and/or am not listening nor can tell that I've been changing. And the message I'd like to go with this song?

Pay not attention to how many times I fall, but count you the times I stand back up and press on.

Go ahead and take your best shot

Let 'er rip, give it all you've got

I'm laid out on the floor, but I've been here before

I may stumble, yeah I may fall

I'm only human, but aren't we all?

I may lose my way

But hear me when I say

I will stand back up

You'll know just the moment when I've had enough

Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough

But I'll stand back up

I've been beaten up and bruised, yeah

I've been kicked right off my shoes

Been down on my knees more times than you'd believe

And when the darkness tries to get me

There's a light that just won't let me (Jesus)

It might take my pride,

And tears may fill my eyes

But I'll stand back up

I've weathered all these storms

But I just turn them into wind so I can fly

If what don't kill you makes you stronger

When I take my last breath

That's when I'll just give up

So, go ahead and take your best shot

Let 'er rip, give it all you've got

You might win this round, but you can't keep me down

'Cause I'll stand back up

You'll know just the moment when I've had enough

Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough

But I'll stand back up

You'll know just the moment that I've had enough

Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough

But I'll stand back up

I know I say negative things. Really negative things. And I might even feel like they're true. But, unlike before, I know it's just a feeling that will pass away. I know I don't always say stupid things, and I know that it doesn't matter when I do, unless it hurts someone else unecessarily (and even then it's no use to spend my life punishing myself for those times). I know I'm not useless, and I know I'm not a complete failure, and that it's ok when I am (no one is good at everything, although sometimes it seems like it :-)). But sometimes I just need to say what I'm feeling. And if you observe me you'll see how quickly my feelings change. I know that if I feel like a loser one night, I'll wake up praising God for another day and I'll feel like a winner. Sometimes I need to cry to feel better -- even if it's over something so small it doesn't matter except in the moment. But I'm a stubborn girl and I refuse to be walked on, and besides that I've got the good Lord keeping me in check. He's the only one who can help me see the uselessness of petty self-pity parties, because He's never wrong, and I know He knows what I'm feeling, why I'm feeling that way, and how to get me out of it.