Let me let go

"Let me let go, baby

Let me let go

If this is for the best,

Why are you still in my heart

You're still in my soul

Let me let go"

"I thought this was supposed to feel good

And if you were really mine

I guess it would

I didn't fall in love

'Cause it was the right thing to do

I just went ahead and fell for you

Oh, somewhere down along the line

I guess this love became a crime

This contradiction makes no sense

This is punishment

I feel like this is judgement day

I'll raise my hand, stand up and say

I don't believe I'm innocent

This is punishment

Truth is, your heart was never mine to take

Now I'm stuck in a feeling

That I'll never shake

I prayed for it to go,

God knows I want it to stay

But here I am loving you either way

Oh, somewhere down along the line

I guess this love became a crime

This contradiction makes no sense

This is punishment

I feel like this is judgment day

I'll raise my hand, stand up and say

I don't believe I'm innocent

This is punishment

You'll never feel all the things I can't say

And I'll never know if it's better this way

Oh, somewhere down along the line

I guess this love became a crime

This contradiction makes no sense

This is punishment

I feel like this is judgment day

I'll raise my hand, stand up and say

I don't believe I'm innocent

This is punishment"

Lord, I'm down on my knees again tonight, hoping this prayer will turn out right. I am the weakest of all who walk this earth, the vilest, knowing what the right thing to do was and not doing it. I just...froze...and fell. Lord, how can anyone see me as beautiful? Besides being extra short and having dark circles under my eyes that I often don't bother to cover up in the least, I am not...I am not beautiful inside. I deserve to be ignored, I am not worthy of anyone, especially not of someone who really truely cares about me.

Oh, God, what have I done? Renew my worth, LORD God, for only You can. I don't deserve for You to, don't have a right to even ask it of You, but I do, Lord, for I know You take joy in being the strength of Your fallen children. Somehow, You delight in teaching, and lifting up, and healing. And God, if anybody needs Your grace, it's me. Oh, God, it's me. How can I say I love You when at every turn I hurt You? But I need You to love me, Lord. Please, on my knees I beg You.

How quickly sadness comes upon me,

When taken over by an onslaught of painful memories

When will they die, or at the least, fade?

But all things being equal, would the good I trade,

To never have been driven back to my Lord

By never falling for you? Such I can't afford

The good, does it outweigh the bad?

Lord, by my actions I have made You sad

I wandered from the path You set before me

Why, oh why, didn't this distruction I see?

Why couldn't I tell that the pain would be great?

Or did I, and thus more foolishly sealed this fate

This fate of hurting myself and those I love

And disappointing You, my God above

But now closer than ever I draw to You,

Knowing more than ever I need You, and only You

Hold me, Lord! Don't let me go!

Draw me close, and let me know

That everything I've done is truely forgiven

And allow me to attain the peace for which I've striven

Thank You, Lord

Amen.